Should I have taken the blue pill?

It has been a week since I reached Singapore and I got matriculated last week as a student at NTU. Most part of my life, I lived the life of a student. In fact I am a veteran in studentship and it should not be a problem for me to lead a student life. But somehow there is a tinge of fear somewhere in the corner of my mind.

For all these years I lived a chaotic life, which I enjoyed, and it worked perfectly well with me. But now this country, with all its beauty and wealth, is filled with lives in order. It is so ordered that it is scaring me. It scares me if my way of student life works here, it scares me if I can diffuse with the way of student life that works here, it scares me if I change that way will I end up being a serious, boring geek!

Now, I don’t have answers for any of them.  The other part of my mind which consoles me has got this point that I had similar feelings when I joined GEC Thrissur for B-Tech and I got over it. Probably this will take a similar path too..